Five years later
1.
Check out Colorlines issue on sept 11th and a catologue of previous pieces on 9/11:
2.
Two for Professor Zero. She has us remember another America and another
Sept 11th: 1973 chile
3.
the one and only time I was pregnant, it was this week, five years ago, twins, only 8 weeks, so according to many idiots, mostly women, I was not 'really pregnant'. [add these wenches to my hit list of yesterday.] yes, my nontragedy is nothing compared to the real TWIN tragedy in New York. I got that already. And since my blog is political, I should not be a big baby and cry about my own personal nonloss. I got that too.
please don't post sympathy comments and also try to avoid vituperative ones--at least here on this topic. attack away on other posts if you are so inclined. There's nothing to talk about.
I think that's why I was so angry & irritated yesterday. That list is real though and the anger is real, so maybe it was just meaningful that I finally posted it this week, and it only took me five years to say it in public.
granted, no one who is on the list knows I have this blog, but things have a way of getting around, so I am sure the jackasses will have the usual radar and find me.
I want that to happen and I really don't want that to happen. I alternate between sadism and masochism, mostly the latter.
yes, i am a feminist even though I call some women wenches. yes, I am an anarchist even though I am in a monogamous relationship and live in a wealthy suburb. yes, I am Chaldean even though I consider myself to be an Arab, a leftie, and anti-authoritarian.
yes, I am avoiding a piece of writing that is due on Wednesday. Goddammit.
yes, I did get off the topic of five years ago. a good thing.
Check out Colorlines issue on sept 11th and a catologue of previous pieces on 9/11:
- Five organizers share their reactions to the tragedy.
Immigrants and communities of color have faced the brunt of hate crimes, raids and detentions since 9/11
- Refugee policy is dictated by political objectives, not humanitarian principles.
- Before the 9/11 round-ups, INS detention had already grown into a system handling 150,000 immigrants a year. Tram Nguyen looks for the connections.
2.
Two for Professor Zero. She has us remember another America and another
Sept 11th: 1973 chile
3.
the one and only time I was pregnant, it was this week, five years ago, twins, only 8 weeks, so according to many idiots, mostly women, I was not 'really pregnant'. [add these wenches to my hit list of yesterday.] yes, my nontragedy is nothing compared to the real TWIN tragedy in New York. I got that already. And since my blog is political, I should not be a big baby and cry about my own personal nonloss. I got that too.
please don't post sympathy comments and also try to avoid vituperative ones--at least here on this topic. attack away on other posts if you are so inclined. There's nothing to talk about.
I think that's why I was so angry & irritated yesterday. That list is real though and the anger is real, so maybe it was just meaningful that I finally posted it this week, and it only took me five years to say it in public.
granted, no one who is on the list knows I have this blog, but things have a way of getting around, so I am sure the jackasses will have the usual radar and find me.
I want that to happen and I really don't want that to happen. I alternate between sadism and masochism, mostly the latter.
yes, i am a feminist even though I call some women wenches. yes, I am an anarchist even though I am in a monogamous relationship and live in a wealthy suburb. yes, I am Chaldean even though I consider myself to be an Arab, a leftie, and anti-authoritarian.
yes, I am avoiding a piece of writing that is due on Wednesday. Goddammit.
yes, I did get off the topic of five years ago. a good thing.
posted by DangerousDerrida at Monday, September 11, 2006
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2 Comments:
I hope this isn't vituperative: I had a miscarriage and later, an abortion. People thought I should not consider myself pregnant re the miscarriage (it was early on) and should feel sad and conflicted about the abortion. I found it odd: there was every reason to be sorry about the miscarriage and relieved about the abortion.
not venomous at all.
people just project their own shit onto us. Each pregnancy took place in a different time in your life, and your response is the one that matters. That is why I avoided telling people anything, but then that gets old and it gets lonely.
For me, depression & being in limbo about having children were interlinked and the loss just seeped into all parts of my life-esp my (non)writing life.
sorry for your loss profacero.
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