don't stop thinking about tomorrow: temporal drag

I don't belong to affective communities outside of academe. that is super hilarious.
all my closest ties are to other academics and to life inside of the space(s) I want to implode
LOL. OMG. so KKK. so not cool.

xxxxxx
here are the lines from fleetwood mac song:

if you wake up and don't want to smile, if it takes just a little while
open your eyes and look at the day
you'll see things in a different way
don't stop thinking about tomorrow
it will be better than before

yesterday's gone, yesterday's gone

think what tomorrow will do

it will soon be here

why not think about the things to come and not about the things that you have done

just think about what tomorrow will do

it will be better than before

HERE's my intervention or critical karaoke:

I have always been a positive person
as evidenced by my listening history
i listened to Fleetwood Mac's "just think about what tomorrow will do"
and it alleviated pressure I was feeling about my future in relation to my past

I don't EVER cry over spilled milk
it is superboring to revisit the past and those folks who talk endlessly about shit
that happened to them when they were kids need to shut the fuck up
man up
grow some balls
move on
stop talking
do some yoga
smoke some weed
whatever
it
takes
to
shut up
shut down

I used to tell my sister: your past is not your identity. Things happened TO YOU; they are not WHO you are...don't make trauma into identity. it's really not productive

i need to drink up my milk and see that yesterday's gone, gone like the wind, and how can I find solace in satire? surrealism?
sunny days are my future, Southern California
revisiting the past is a drag
it drags me back to a time I don't remember and have easily forgotten
why not think about the things to come
not reproductive futurity
but a future that is contingent, precarious, lost, maybe refound
no hope
hope creates stagnation, little movement
anger creates discursive freedom and intellectual labor and a future that could end /dead end at any entry point and that is good to know
at 12 I needed hope
at 43 I need to know the future does not matter
the past does not matter

is this critical enough?
i don't think i am enough of anything or any body's anything
don't stop
thinking
about tomorrow
......
that was fun
not so funny but i am working on it